I loved them both, fiercely, differently, the way you love two fires that burn in different directions.
But then I started seeing cracks.
Peter had always bought scratch-off tickets, the occasional lottery play. Harmless, I thought. Everyone has a small vice. Then it became twenty-dollar bets, then fifty. Then he came home talking about an “investment opportunity” a friend had—flipping used boats.
“Easy money,” he promised. “We’ll double it in six months.”
I didn’t like it. We had two little boys, a mortgage, daycare costs. But Peter was persuasive, and I wanted to believe in him. I wanted to believe marriage meant trust.
We lost four thousand dollars when the friend vanished and the boats turned out to be stolen.
I was furious. We fought. Peter apologized, swore it would never happen again. I believed him because I wanted the story of us to stay intact.
Two years later, it happened again—this time poker games with coworkers that turned into a habit. He told me he was winning until I went to pay the mortgage and saw our savings account gutted. Three hundred dollars where there should have been eight thousand.