That party was the last chance I never should have given them.
My parents had turned their thirtieth anniversary into a full-scale performance. Caterers. String lights. Customized champagne labels. A photographer. Floral arches rented for the backyard. Guests who existed almost entirely for the purpose of being impressed by each other’s surface finish. My mother had spent weeks talking about it like a royal jubilee. Jace talked about bringing “investor types.” My father kept mentioning that two important colleagues from Intrepid might stop by and that it was essential the evening feel elevated.
He said elevated the way insecure men say legacy.
I worked the late shift that day and still came straight there afterward because somewhere under all my hard-won clarity, I still remembered being a boy who wanted to bring home something made by hand and have it treated like it meant love. I had showered at work, but cleaning chemicals cling. That particular citrus-bleach note follows you even after soap. I wore my navy uniform because I hadn’t had time to change and because, increasingly, I was tired of disguising labor to comfort people ashamed of it. In my hands I carried the cake.