Or, on one memorable Christmas, while handing me a multipack of socks in front of relatives, “Couldn’t think of what else a man like you would want. These at least will survive the bleach.”

People laughed.

That was Jace’s genius. He wrapped contempt in joke timing so everyone else could enjoy cruelty without admitting it.

The only person in my family who had ever looked at me without trying to arrange me into something more convenient was my grandfather.

He died a year after I won the lottery.

That is the detail I cannot tell without something in me tightening, even now.

Grandpa Eamon Soryn lived in a narrow blue house three streets over from the river, in the older part of Harborpoint where porch railings needed paint and people still fixed things rather than replaced them. He had been a maintenance supervisor at the shipyard for thirty years, which may be why he never once disrespected my janitor job. He used to say a building tells the truth to the people who clean it, repair it, or stay late enough to hear the pipes. He was the only one who ever looked at my work boots and saw skill instead of embarrassment.