Because sometimes even invisible men want ten dollars’ worth of alternate physics.
I checked the numbers the next morning in the supply closet on the third floor, leaning against a shelf of paper towels while the fluorescent light buzzed overhead. At first I thought I’d read them wrong. Then I checked again. Then again. Then I slid to a crouch on the concrete floor because the room had started tilting and I was afraid if I stayed standing I might black out and hit my head on industrial shelving before I even had time to become rich.
Four.
Twelve.
Twenty-eight.
Thirty-five.
Forty-two.
Mega Ball eleven.
I remember the exact sensation of that moment because it never really left me. Not excitement. Not joy. A sort of terrible widening. As if the walls of my life had suddenly fallen outward and I was standing in the raw weather of possibility with no shelter yet built.
I did not tell a soul.
Not a friend. Not a coworker. Not my family. Not even the woman I occasionally had coffee with on Saturdays and liked enough that I stopped calling it casual in my own head. Nobody.