Because sometimes even invisible men want ten dollars’ worth of alternate physics.

I checked the numbers the next morning in the supply closet on the third floor, leaning against a shelf of paper towels while the fluorescent light buzzed overhead. At first I thought I’d read them wrong. Then I checked again. Then again. Then I slid to a crouch on the concrete floor because the room had started tilting and I was afraid if I stayed standing I might black out and hit my head on industrial shelving before I even had time to become rich.

Four.

Twelve.

Twenty-eight.

Thirty-five.

Forty-two.

Mega Ball eleven.

I remember the exact sensation of that moment because it never really left me. Not excitement. Not joy. A sort of terrible widening. As if the walls of my life had suddenly fallen outward and I was standing in the raw weather of possibility with no shelter yet built.

I did not tell a soul.

Not a friend. Not a coworker. Not my family. Not even the woman I occasionally had coffee with on Saturdays and liked enough that I stopped calling it casual in my own head. Nobody.