I walked into my parents’ house with my newborn in my arms, my body still aching and fragile, as if it had been torn apart and stitched back together by pain and determination. My daughter, Lila, was only nine days old, sleeping against my chest in a pale yellow blanket with her tiny lips slightly parted and her breath warm against my skin.
I had not wanted to come that day, but my mother had called three times that morning with a voice that sounded overly sweet and urgent, insisting that my father wanted to make peace and that a family should not stay divided after a baby was born. I should have trusted the knot in my stomach and turned the car around before I ever reached that house.
The front door was already open when I stepped inside, and my sister Brittany stood in the foyer as if she had been waiting behind it the entire time. She smiled at the baby first instead of looking at me, and before I could even set down the diaper bag she lunged forward and yanked Lila right out of my arms.
I screamed her name and reached forward instinctively, but my mother did not move from her place near the dining room and my father, sitting in his recliner, did not even bother to stand up.