My son sent me a message: “Mom, I know you just bought us the house, but Sarah’s dad says you can’t come to Thanksgiving.” I stared at the screen, thought about the $350,000 I had spent to give him a home, and typed one word back: “Okay.” That night, I stopped being everybody’s wallet and started being the woman who was about to take everything back—starting with the house they thought was already theirs.

My shopping cart sat where I left it. Pumpkins and fresh green beans already picked out, already useless. I walked out the door into the parking lot. The afternoon sun felt different now. Too bright, like it was showing me something I didn’t want to see.

Inside my car, I put the purple notebook on the seat next to me. All those papers. Six years of not buying things for myself. One text message.

My hands grabbed the steering wheel tight. The screen on my phone cracked a tiny bit at the corner. I didn’t even know I was squeezing it so hard. The crack spread out like a little tree branch. Small, but it would stay there forever.

I sat there for a long time, maybe 15 minutes, maybe longer. Time felt slow and sticky. Other people came and went, loading their groceries, driving away, coming back for more. Through my windshield, I could see people inside the store pushing carts, picking food, planning holidays with families who loved them.

My phone buzzed again. Danny was calling. I watched his name flash on the screen. One ring, two rings, three rings, then it stopped. He’d call again. They always did when they needed something.