I invited them onto the porch and showed Lily the old notebook photocopy my father had sent, which I had by then framed and placed on the bookshelf in my office. She stared at the crooked crayon drawing with the reverence only children and very old people seem capable of giving to symbols.

“You drew it before it was real,” she whispered.

“Yes.”

“So you made it twice.”

That sentence stayed with me.

In November, on the one-year anniversary of my closing date, Carol said, “You know what you ought to do?”

I looked up from the pie crust I was overworking. “That question never ends simply.”

“Have the dinner.”

“The dinner?”

“The one they didn’t come to. Except this time invite people who can read a calendar and locate a conscience.”

I laughed, then stopped.

Because the idea entered me with the immediate rightness of something that had been waiting.

For weeks after the empty dinner, I had thought of the table only as evidence of humiliation. The candles. The chicken. The untouched glasses. The sagging balloons. I had not considered that the failure of the first dinner did not require permanent cancellation of the ritual itself. The room had not betrayed me. The people had.