I squatted on the toilet and retched. After I calmed down, I saw the pregnancy test stick in the trash can. There were two red lines on it. I looked at it for a long time and it was also red, as if laughing at my incompetence. I didn’t know what kind of mood I should use to describe my current state. I couldn’t cry. There was nothing else except endless pain.
Since I became blind, Adam and I hadn’t had sex for half a year. He found Kelly and now made her pregnant.
Adam chased me in a panic and he hugged me from behind with a look of shock on his face.
"Helena, what's wrong with you? Are you sick? I was so panicked when you pushed me away just now."
The two hands he held on my waist trembled slightly, as if I would disappear at any time and he couldn't help but hold me tighter. He was making love with another woman the previous second and he spoke to me affectionately the next second.
Adam, you are really good at acting. I pulled his hand away and kept a distance from him.
"Maybe I have a bad stomach. I have always had a hard time swallowing anything I eat recently."
I didn’t know when I learned to lie. I used to hate people like this, but now I had become the kind of person I hate.